Awnsers to a difficult question

Prepboy says:
because they're all insensitive, insecure, cowardly assholes
That really, really made my day.

Old friendships and old habits...

I've got to say, dispite how awful I feel I am still really greatful for the people around me.
In perticular (for this post anyways) Andrew, dispite not really being around much lately true friends are never fully gone.
I love how down I'm feeling and how he knows exactly where to lead me, down the road to redemption of other. He's moving in next week and asking me to help him grocery shop and cook etc. General taking care of someone else things, my perfect medicine.
So thanks andrew.


Also Prepboy and Kcam showed up again last night, watch 10 mins of edward sisor hands so that was cool. He said sweet dreams as he left, and kcam called me a geek for playing my game :P.


P.S. why won't this let me place a title for my post. :grumbles:

Neglect no more!

Ok, even the bad days have highlights!!!
Today's Brightest points!

• Todd Ross kicked me in the back with his dirty (and ugly) crocs twice! With Brian's encouragement. But then while we all kept talking he brushed off all the dirt. :3
• Ben was talking to me again :3, in both french and psychology! It was just different.. like the tone and general manner which we used to talk, before and all. It was good.
• Katelyn and Lauren in french, and getting a 25/25 on the round table. Kcam arriving late, and siting next to me was awesome too.
• Gwyn randomly stoping by, seriously nothing makes me feel better.
• Gwyn and i going to SESSIONS for mochas and flaun, ok nothing makes me feel better than that, especially on a bad day :3
• We blasted techno the whole time <3
• And she made awesome spagettie which we went to her house to collect and now i have real food for supper!! :)
• I have a list of todd/katelyn quotes and happy things somewheres!
• Oh and Prepboy randomly stoped by a few nights ago and just talked for 30 mins. Allways like old times and awesome, I kinda realized how i'd forgotten about how much i enjoyed those times.
• Right now i'm talking to my name on Trillian and it's actualy making me feel better. His parental wisdom is not only not giving me a head or making me mad, but i feel good about it

:)

• Oh right! and Christian had a double role today too! In the halls he said hi/made a joke about "jees amanda goign slow enough" well banging into me etc. But in one of those jokes you make to friends way, not the i'm a serious asshole way.
• And he said he liked our animation, dispite how crapy it was.
• Oh yeah, Todd gets another point for positive project comments and making fun of how demented the class was and mentioning our animation in perticular.
• Brian gets another point because he said he wanted one of my grad photos.
• .. I guess I owe Todd a point for this two because he's harrashed about them.

• Edit again, Graeme gets a point because he had actual contact today. Walked by with a pop can while I was working and placed it on the back of my neck. Again, alot of the things today sound like bullying but when you know the people and your me it makes you smile. I basically shows that things are cool between us again (haha lame ass pun!... damn i am lame)
  

Good things

Metal
Concerts
Mosh pits
Shows
Head banging
Friends
Love
Hot boys
Metal Heads
Sexy long hair
Awesome in your face solo's
chilling with the bands
The guitarist who gave us a personal solo
Forgiveness
Thankfullness (Andrew babe you made my night)
Gwyn and her tiny car
Ben
Katelyn
Graeme
Christian
Amy
Dos
Getting along
Having fun
Being friends again

Because I really need it

Miku giving me a back rub in media studies
Mostly everything Todd does
[10:45] Adam: ok, i actually need to go, but i wanted to tell you... i read your last blog post and i don't want you to be angry with yourself. if it helps, you've opened up my mind to vegan foods, especially after those yummy ice cream bars and the various treats you've brought in, over the year. i'd be *far* more likely to eat vegan food, thanks to you. :)
Ben asking and then checking back up on what was up with me (even tho in the end he made it worst that still makes me beleive things are fine).
Kcam taking me to DQ, and circling back a few times to see mike
Geoff stoping by for convo and listening
Gwyn for chilling during third and giving me her full attention
Lauren for staying with me at lunch
My mom for helping with that doomed sewing project I fucked up
Zane (yeah thats right my brother) for lending me his new black shirt for when Dave can't fit into the costume I made tomorow.
Todd again for asking katelyn why I was having a bad day.. during class.. three feet away from me as if I couldn't hear :P
The guy who produced Veronica Mars. Seriously.
Veganism

On not such a great day

Ben coming to class and offering to let me read his new manga, and actually talking to me a little bit.
Adam S and kcam and veronica mars! <3
Mr. Ross for showing up and ceasing Rob's discussion of fecal matter related sex acts >.>
The warm sun first period.
Finishing my english test and my media studies responces (including the one due tomorow ^-^)
The lack of supervision/work in cul tech today.
T for cheering me up in the hallway.
Zach for saying I looked pretty today and giving me a hug when I went to him and asked him to cheer me up.
Kcam for asking if I wanted something when she went to DQ and for bringing me back fries.
Internet access in school so I could blog.

Welcome to 1984

Past memories of enjoyment which never got to see the light of paper:
Graeme saying in the car: That's stupid, why would we go to your house just to see jason and ignore you? It's rude, if I'm going to your house it's to see you.

When Ben said: Why Can't Tessa be more like you?

Every single mention Katelyn give me in her blog <3

The day andrew said I looked hot and was a looker.

The day Lee and Darcy said I looked nice

Mr. Ross saving me food

Lee talking about how sexy my boot where

Andrew buying me said boots

Geoff buying me the knife

Ben after I gave him the knife, saying it was the nicest thing anyones ever gotten him.

Mr. Ross being concerned when I was absent and checking up on me.

Gwyn making me soup when I was sick.

Mike being so thankfull about the flowers

Master getting angry when people made me sad.

Nigel talking to me and trying to convince me not to go to halifax.

Having Ben randomly show up when I was sick, and offering me pop dispite my diseasedness.

Adam's flirting with me.

Adam W "what?!?! not even if I asked you to prom?"