Sunshine, lollypops, rainbows..

well ok, not really.
But it's been a good day, nailed an interview with the YAP guy.
Got to girl talk with Jess from work, haven't seen her in a while.
Steve just came in and stuck his toungue out at me, I guess that's a hello, and smiled. Apprently he plans to kill the environment with his pop can tabs.
Ok, so it was a lame joke and not very funny, but it's social contact which is cool.

Scrabble games have mulitplied, Todd and Kcam played their turns, great PPK games going on. Spoke To Chiatroll this morning, played more scrabble goodness.
Lots of ppk smiles, no time to state them all.

haha, steve just walked over saying hey and smiling until I waved him away, cause i'm on a call. Joyce is back so I did my meeting my cancel saves are awesome :D
And I'm going to andrew's place tonight, see the new thing and hang out, which is cool because I haven't seen him in a while.

Steve flipping on the customers, finding out I'm 19 and being surprised as shit. And when I told him to fuck off, I know i'm short, he said I was about Carla's hight.
Not to mention my pile of coffee and chocolate :3

Small reasons to smile.

I have full work shifts, 8 hours of paid time plus I got full time hours, with breaks and lunches. Random, accidental maybe, but awesome.

John invited himself to the gathering, went to get me water (with ice!) and left early as usual and patted my head as he walked by while I was on the phone.

I also had loads to do on my break, facebooking and all. Katelyn wants to go to sessions, I still have that coffee date with Todd, Andrew's new place to check out and possibly go to because I have later shift). Dos works here now, and came to see me a few days ago, now we may actually get to take lunches!<3

I also had a great mail day, book from pam, care pack from JCD and vegan outreach letters. Plus I have alot more mail things to look forward too :).

Also got a nice comment from tinctoris and lots of nice comments on my picture posts. hehe.

Sometimes Bad Bad day's have the nicest moments.

My mother ditched me at work, no way home.
I just had an awful call with an idiot who ordered from another company and yelled at me forever. He was mad when I told him we were two different companies and called me a liar, sorry dude we can't merge companies and become one just cause you'd like it. WE ARE TWO DIFFERENT COMPANIES. Fork.
Anyway, someone in the other companies CS messed up and told dickwad to call here. Steve heard me talking about it went on about how it was the other agents messing up again, and then he got right on the phone and called their sup. <3
Justin offered to get off early to drive me home and and Kcam sent me an e-mail to try and go too.
Also lots of joking and kind words going on, don't remeber them all.
but i'm feeling better.
Thanks kids.

Old friendships and old habits...

I've got to say, dispite how awful I feel I am still really greatful for the people around me.
In perticular (for this post anyways) Andrew, dispite not really being around much lately true friends are never fully gone.
I love how down I'm feeling and how he knows exactly where to lead me, down the road to redemption of other. He's moving in next week and asking me to help him grocery shop and cook etc. General taking care of someone else things, my perfect medicine.
So thanks andrew.


Also Prepboy and Kcam showed up again last night, watch 10 mins of edward sisor hands so that was cool. He said sweet dreams as he left, and kcam called me a geek for playing my game :P.


P.S. why won't this let me place a title for my post. :grumbles:

Another peice from work.
Came in today, feeling great.
I've come to determine good days come from good shoes, and I love these shoes.
Sheldon said Morning sexy when I cam in so that also helped to brighten my day...

And oh yeah... I brought Flaun<3

Added from a few days ago: When I was leaving work on monday as I was headed out the door Steve said goodbye and that he'd try to sit closer next time. Not sure why, but that also made me smile.

Also drove to pick up kcam and bring soup to gwyn. Spent some time with Ben, went to his place. Seeing his face when I pulled out Death note was pretty awesome. Also we watched Can't Hardly Wait, which ruled.

Neglect no more!

Ok, even the bad days have highlights!!!
Today's Brightest points!

• Todd Ross kicked me in the back with his dirty (and ugly) crocs twice! With Brian's encouragement. But then while we all kept talking he brushed off all the dirt. :3
• Ben was talking to me again :3, in both french and psychology! It was just different.. like the tone and general manner which we used to talk, before and all. It was good.
• Katelyn and Lauren in french, and getting a 25/25 on the round table. Kcam arriving late, and siting next to me was awesome too.
• Gwyn randomly stoping by, seriously nothing makes me feel better.
• Gwyn and i going to SESSIONS for mochas and flaun, ok nothing makes me feel better than that, especially on a bad day :3
• We blasted techno the whole time <3
• And she made awesome spagettie which we went to her house to collect and now i have real food for supper!! :)
• I have a list of todd/katelyn quotes and happy things somewheres!
• Oh and Prepboy randomly stoped by a few nights ago and just talked for 30 mins. Allways like old times and awesome, I kinda realized how i'd forgotten about how much i enjoyed those times.
• Right now i'm talking to my name on Trillian and it's actualy making me feel better. His parental wisdom is not only not giving me a head or making me mad, but i feel good about it

:)

• Oh right! and Christian had a double role today too! In the halls he said hi/made a joke about "jees amanda goign slow enough" well banging into me etc. But in one of those jokes you make to friends way, not the i'm a serious asshole way.
• And he said he liked our animation, dispite how crapy it was.
• Oh yeah, Todd gets another point for positive project comments and making fun of how demented the class was and mentioning our animation in perticular.
• Brian gets another point because he said he wanted one of my grad photos.
• .. I guess I owe Todd a point for this two because he's harrashed about them.

• Edit again, Graeme gets a point because he had actual contact today. Walked by with a pop can while I was working and placed it on the back of my neck. Again, alot of the things today sound like bullying but when you know the people and your me it makes you smile. I basically shows that things are cool between us again (haha lame ass pun!... damn i am lame)
  

I've been gone for a while, but I think I'm back home now

I have so neglected this blog.
I have so many great things written down just about everywhere.

Joyful things:
The PPK
Vegan: The Gathering
Cooking
Baking
Lolo's muffins
Sharing
Talking
Long talks
Sleepover's that allways lead to those long talks
Dancing
Dances
My friends
Moments when you know that they are your friends and they love you.
Hanging out
The boob thread
WetVeganPanties.net (dispite the fact it never got made)
pervy photos
pervy jokes and discussion
Cleaning
getting your list of chores done and ever setting out and doing them (but maybe that's just today :P)
Being vegan, everyday makes me feel so much better about everything around me.
kcam
adam
miku
Todd
T
Apple
Dos
Gwyn
Amy
Lauren
Yas
They all come to mind, god the dance was good dispite things.

Good things

Metal
Concerts
Mosh pits
Shows
Head banging
Friends
Love
Hot boys
Metal Heads
Sexy long hair
Awesome in your face solo's
chilling with the bands
The guitarist who gave us a personal solo
Forgiveness
Thankfullness (Andrew babe you made my night)
Gwyn and her tiny car
Ben
Katelyn
Graeme
Christian
Amy
Dos
Getting along
Having fun
Being friends again

On not such a great day

Ben coming to class and offering to let me read his new manga, and actually talking to me a little bit.
Adam S and kcam and veronica mars! <3
Mr. Ross for showing up and ceasing Rob's discussion of fecal matter related sex acts >.>
The warm sun first period.
Finishing my english test and my media studies responces (including the one due tomorow ^-^)
The lack of supervision/work in cul tech today.
T for cheering me up in the hallway.
Zach for saying I looked pretty today and giving me a hug when I went to him and asked him to cheer me up.
Kcam for asking if I wanted something when she went to DQ and for bringing me back fries.
Internet access in school so I could blog.

Daily bright points

I've gotta say classes with Todd are really helping me out.
Cul tech is going great, I have a vegan black forest cake recipe and my WHOLE group agree to make it instead of the animal laced version yay!
Todd was great too, I was in the yearbook room after my cul tech test and he came in to talk to kcam and I, mostly kcam about the slideshow. He was asking me how my veganising was going and said he had been searching on google last night to try and find some veganized Heavy whipping cream etc. Mostly he was looking for a way to procastinate on his work so he decided to do a few hours of searching for me. We also talked about his married crush Sarah Kramer, who's e-mail I offered to hand over. Apprently its a boyhood thing.. tattooed woman etc, you can oogle from a far and ask me for new pictures but no actual contact or stalking.

Had a good realization in French when talking to Nichole... I'm in a good mood. Seriously. Things can't go wrong, i mean they do.. but i just don't care. Graeme hasn't spoken to me, Ben hadn't either at that point and I was still riding high from my sucess with Master on the weekend. I guess he may need a new nickname as he holds no power over me and neither does anyone else ^-^.

Also something which will allways add a good note to any day. The Boob thread has been reactivated. And theres a new poster. Joy!

It's the little things

Small things that allways make my day.
~ Hellos and smiles
~ E-mails from people, the thing that were typed and sent to you.
~ Comments on anything really. Comments are just fun to read.
~ Short stories, fictional writing or recollections. It's allways nice to hear from other people, their stories, lives or work.
~ When someone messages you before you message them. Long MSN conversations
~ Phone calls, Or I guess long conversations in general
~ Flowers.. well because their pretty and I got them once, so their cool.
~ Waves or pasing conversations. For some reason that tiny gesture often brightens my day. who knew.
~ Chocolate.. because well I have ovaries and taste buds.
~ Veronica mars! And sleep overs or just hanging out with friends.
~ Random off hand and unexpected nice comments or jestures. (Gwyn <3's for the soup, Kcam love the flaun <3, Geoff random vists <3)
~ When people are looking for you. Ok this one is weird, but for some reason whenever I run into someone who's been looking for me, I tend to feel great.. maybe it's the timing.
~ Going for drives or walks, once again it's probobly the one on one factor.
~ Dancing, or being asked to dance. Nitro raving all of it, makes everything melt away.
~ Hugs.. because well their hugs and they rule.. I supose kisses fit here too, oh and Lesbian jokes/jesting (Gwyn/Erin/Glue/Amy :P). For some reason joking around helps... probobly the laughter.
~ Whenever I see or hear from people I don't expect to.
~ Home made vegan goodies or crafts, someone cared enough to put all that work into something to give you.
~ Random kindness, you see it once in a while and it's nice.
~ Kittens.. because everyone loves them, and they never cease to brighten my day. Same with my dog and really all animals.
~ Notes, you know those old school scraps of paper where someone uses their hands to write you something. And then gets caught handing it to you or slips it into you locker,pocket, or bag.
~ Letters. Yeah, i'm oldschool like that.
~ Drawings, I love getting them. All art really.

yesterday's news

Little things mean alot to loads of people.

Media studies with mr. Ross suposed to go for a walk, that fell throught but jensen's class came to hang out so it was fun. Got to see andrew too.

Obviously 24 marathon with kcam rocked!

Went to bed at 9 >.> LAME! but it was kinda nice too.

Warm sun in english class, i just sat and watched cars go by (i got there early early).

Best moment: Andrew invited me to his risk party, we both knew i wasn't going. But it was nice to know at least he wanted me there a little. Made my day.

John gave us a ride home.

Mr. Ross gave me the creepiest smile and wave ever...
Gave john a siegh hail for his b-day (same day as hitlers)

Plast from the past:
Pausing VM when logan's dad appeared on the sex tape and screaming "OMGOMGOMG!!" In the year book room. Then taking photobooth photos of us screaming and being surprised, lol. Then unpausing it and wonder why the image stoped moving. Turns out the characters in the show paused it too. Lotsa laughts

Day of the Dead

Today was the worst day of not Amanda Week If I do say so myself.
I have pictures I will post sometime.
Daily Smiles:

Mr. Ross yelling at me through the halls " Seeexxxyy Mommama!"
Mrs. Jensen telling me to shot Berentha first after making her remove the jacket to prevent it from getting stained with blood. (during the school shooting Mr. Ross predicted I would have tomorow due to the dress).

"huh? Sorry, I can't concentrate with Amanda Here" -Todd
"Yeah I know me either"-Kcam
This continues for a bit

" What you don't like being/being called dreamy?"-Mr. Ross
"well we can allways switch (refering to clothing) I like wearing dresses, as you've noticed over there years" -Todd
"Course.. that ones a little too little for me"- Todd

Ok... so mostly it was Todd teasing me

Claire chasing a roll of tape and then mauling it.
Her chewing on the screw driver until the kittens took it away.

In adam's car, with the adams and talking about how it looked as if the guy on the crane was going to bump into the power line. Adam S "that would so Fu-..awful."

I got a phone call from Master asking if I wanted to hang out this weekend.
I won at cards.
Both times

Day of the Dead

Today was the worst day of not Amanda Week If I do say so myself.
I have pictures I will post sometime.
Daily Smiles:

Mr. Ross yelling at me through the halls " Seeexxxyy Mommama!"
Mrs. Jensen telling me to shot Berentha first after making her remove the jacket to prevent it from getting stained with blood. (during the school shooting Mr. Ross predicted I would have tomorow due to the dress).

"huh? Sorry, I can't concentrate with Amanda Here" -Todd
"Yeah I know me either"-Kcam
This continues for a bit

" What you don't like being/being called dreamy?"-Mr. Ross
"well we can allways switch (refering to clothing) I like wearing dresses, as you've noticed over there years" -Todd
"Course.. that ones a little too little for me"- Todd

Ok... so mostly it was Todd teasing me

Claire chasing a roll of tape and then mauling it.
Her chewing on the screw driver until the kittens took it away.

Welcome to 1984

Past memories of enjoyment which never got to see the light of paper:
Graeme saying in the car: That's stupid, why would we go to your house just to see jason and ignore you? It's rude, if I'm going to your house it's to see you.

When Ben said: Why Can't Tessa be more like you?

Every single mention Katelyn give me in her blog <3

The day andrew said I looked hot and was a looker.

The day Lee and Darcy said I looked nice

Mr. Ross saving me food

Lee talking about how sexy my boot where

Andrew buying me said boots

Geoff buying me the knife

Ben after I gave him the knife, saying it was the nicest thing anyones ever gotten him.

Mr. Ross being concerned when I was absent and checking up on me.

Gwyn making me soup when I was sick.

Mike being so thankfull about the flowers

Master getting angry when people made me sad.

Nigel talking to me and trying to convince me not to go to halifax.

Having Ben randomly show up when I was sick, and offering me pop dispite my diseasedness.

Adam's flirting with me.

Adam W "what?!?! not even if I asked you to prom?"